my tomato harvest

My friend Dali

Challenging any true believing friend, Isn't the Lama better? 

"It is better to be aware of a single weakness in oneself than to be aware of a thousand weaknesses in someone else."

Sunflowers

Growing out my hair

Experimentally I have been letting my hair grow for about a year.  It's almost to the middle of my back.  Reasons?

- wonder how I would look.
- learning to let go of people pleasing
- rebellion
- I like my natural colors
- tell people I am off the rails
- what if I go bald and never get my chance?
- Will it raise my confidence?
- maybe I will donate it at some point
- I've always had good friends who grew there hair long.
- round appeals to me more then squares
- I like it so far...

Still Learning Basic Life Lessons

Seems like as soon as I think I'm really getting to be more enlightened or aware I get reminded how far there still is to go. Yesterday my son was playing a soccer game and I was there watching. On the opposite side of the field one of the coaches and some of the parents turned into complete poor sport jerks. They where yelling at the ref's, throwing tantrums on any fouls called against them, and just showing their worst. At first I ignored it but as it continued through the game I had as much as I could take and starting yelling back at them that calls where just fine and they needed to chill out over there. I also yelled "Goal" whenever we scored, probably a little bit to happy to rub it in their faces. Well, I've felt bad about it ever since. Why couldn't I just let it alone? How quickly I stooped to their low level of living and allowed myself to become angry at them.

Well, these experiences are actually good as they encourage some self analysis. What should I have done? Well I hope this happens again so I can find out, but my plan is to not ever stoop to their level again. I want to just enjoy the game and each bad behavior I need to laugh at and let go of. Transcend and rise above bad behavior without becoming engaged in it. Then go for a run or exercise if some of the left over bad feelings remain.

Verio team pictures

Kind of a nice work blog got started: http://mcsblog.securesites.net

Had a great hike

I got up at around 3am and started hiking with the new moon last week. Went up the mountain in Spanish Fork Canyon above the windmills. The trail above the Cross was pretty good until I got up a long way and in the shadow I could not see very good anymore. So in brave stupidity I decided to bushwack strait up the mountain. Needless to say I learned how hard it is to go through dense brush that never really opened back up until I got really near the top. However tough it was, it became worth it as I saw the best sunrise I have ever seen as you can look a long way from that vantage point and it was awsome. Going down was absolutley crazy as there was no trail and I ended up in a snowy ravine. It reminded me of Romancing the Stone when they slide through the dense jungle mud, except in my case I was sliding down the steep snow filled ravine barely under control. It was really fun and reminded me of being a kid.